Remember Fear Factor show yg dahulunya menjadi kegilaan semua termasuk aku sendiri.
Now there is a new show called Wipeout juga idea org2 gila yg jadi creator Fear Factor. I'm not going to talk about these shows.
I actually just figured out what my biggest fear is.
Being alone and stranded without my loved ones
Being pregnant, I kept getting weird dreams yang kadang2 tak masuk akal, kdg2 drama lebih.. sometimes i felt like my brain is playing tricks on me.
I can't imagine my life without my husband and family and also this little one inside me whom i am so attached to right now. Losing one of them means part of me is gone. I pray really2 hard for Allah will guard them from harm.
As for you, my baby, . you are 5 months now inside of me and has grown so big. At least my tummy is (: You are getting big that its hard for Mommy to move around that fast. And everyone kept telling mommy you are a boy. .
Mommy is in such an emotional wreck today, crying secretly in the washroom...twice. I'm so scared that I can't be the best mom for you and can't protect you all the time from things that beyond my control. Maybe I'm being overreacted here but I just can't help it,Mommy loves you so much baby. Can't wait to see you..
The one that never got published until now...
9 months ago